Sunday, July 29, 2007

Crossing the threshold

The more time I took away from blogging the harder it was for me to come back. The variables that have played into my absence are many, some excuses and others good distractions. I would love to say that I have been productive in my Studio and as a result there are amazing things I want to share but this is not the case. It seems that the amount of time I have spent away from blogging equals that of being away from my Studio. I am only just now getting warmed up to my sewing machines again.

I guess in part a lot of what kept me away was the ever-growing list of things that we were doing. It seemed that the more we did the less I wanted to write because there were so many things to write about. We have enjoyed an amazing summer of long dinners out on the patio, sandbox parties, hikes, camping, welcoming new friends back to town, welcoming a niece into the world, working, commuting and more.

A lot of what took up my time is the latter items on the list. For some reason I thought it would be a good idea to take on a small job at my Father-in-laws company. It was presented as a small project that would only take about 80hours with very a flexible work schedule. This sounded like a fun change of pace for me at the time. My sister was kind enough to take on the extra hours watching Miss. A and I took on the task of going back to work. In part it was fun being challenged in a new way and being back in a work place with other adults. Part of me did enjoy getting up early and into work at 6 just to get a good start on the day. The other part of me soon realized that 80 hours was not going to be enough to finish the job and I started working 3 10hour days a week for a month. The hours grew long and despite the fifteen minute commute into work the commute home killed me. After working for a good 10 hours I would hop in the car and drive (better yet crawl) along four different freeways to pick up Miss. A. This segment of the commute would tend to take 1.45hours and by the time I got home I was ready to crash. On the weekends we all just wanted to get out of the house and hike or spend time as a family. I literally could not cross the threshold into my studio for a good three weeks. It was like I had a mental barrier and could not over come it. On the weekends I would try to pick up on a project and give up before even getting into the room. For now my segment of the work project is finished and I am slowly getting back into sewing. I have ideas that I am hashing out on the sewing machine and it feels good to be at it again.

I hope that in writing this post it will help to push me back into blogging again. I truly missed being away not only from writing but also from reading. I look forward to catching up on others posts and hope to be writing more frequently now.